48 hours. Thats all that has been behind me since i stepped back onto our sunny island from what seemed like eternity in thailand. somehow i was dying to be back, to actually realise there was more to the palate than fried rice and fried noodles and drinks like teh-ci and milo-peng rather than all those crap that they threw in and blended with ice.

i'm so happy to be home.

or am i.

why is it that its 3.30am in the morning and i can't seem to have my shut eye. (?) Its weird that i can't sleep now. Disturbed i guess by the fact that i actually haven't achieved much of what i had hoped to on my return.

i bought my shoes and finally got my arse off and did some running. a pity the overhead bridge was u/c, if not i guess i would have ran all the way to bedok reservoir. heh. i think running along ecp is best, the air is clean and the breeze is fantastic. somehow, i've some self doubt with this exercise thingie. i dont think the losing weight bit of my new year resolution is going anywhere.

met kenmin today for lunch, its been like 2 years since we met and he brought along teena. I'm amazed at the both of them, like after all these years and still together? its crazy really especially since its ... kenmin. its nice to actually see them together, makes you truly believe that somehow in this world of ours, anything is possible. they actually struck me as a rather compatible couple really, and it made me realise how i wished too for this kinda relationship. really respect teena for showing so much trust in him and makes me wonder if i could ever find a girl like that too. vday is coming and it just made me realise how i'm like drifting, drifting, drifting aimlessly to nowhere and noone.

sad.

i think its just this thing about me not being able to sleep thats really making me depressed. sigh.

triple sec, gin and orange fizz is not helping either.

hmmm.

fell in love with this quote so i'll just throw this in to sum up the melancholic mode.

"Blessed are the forgetful, for they get the better even of their blunders."