earth girl arjuna.

i think its a brilliant anime, its kinda freakish though cos it instigates the somewhat similiar feelings of watching NGE non stop as well. The kind of questions that the show literally overwhelms you with and leaves you with more questions than answers. an irony really when it actually attempts to want you to answer those issues that are brought up in the show.

i'd like to classify them as "my new cynicism", well not an entirely new fact that i knew i was the cynical type. hmm. I guess this blog sounds too patchy but that cant be helped. The amount of brain cells i'd activated while watching the show is absolutely overkill. I cant even remember stuff that i pondered on.

sometimes i wonder. whether the author of the series actually wants you to think in such a way. there is just such pyschological instigation to stimulate your mind. it attacks you so subtly, not just through voice dialouge, arty imagery, i guess it even captured my sense wrt to sights and smell.

am i talking esoteric gibberish here? i guess so. i havent even finished the damn show yet and i', already somewhat OVERLY affected by the content. well at least the show is not as warped as neon genesis evangelion. save the earth!

hmm. whats earth girl arjuna about you might ask, uh huh. simply. a cartoon on saving the environment. but so much more. help me. i seem to be trapped. =_\

I found out something interesting about myself, just.

It seems that everytime i get into a high mood where i am prancy and jumpy and all excited by even the slightest thing, I would somehow slump into a rather melancholic mood soon after.

It was a wonderful day out at Sentosa. I'd thought it would have been a pretty uneventful kinda outing as we had totally NO plan whatsoever as to what we were to do. My past experiences at Sentosa have not been very good either. Stiil ... the slight drizzle could not kill my spirits as i indulged myself into the snazzy beat of blues, soul, funk. Ublues! Live @ padawan beach. Great local band man. I guess i'm pretty much getting used to a new-found-love. Haha. Yeap. Music! Smooth flowing kinda music. Yum Yum.

Anyway ... yeah. Somehow i was in a slump. But talking about jazz just perks me up again. haha. Siao.

ah, $23.90 later and a new found love.

Emi Fujita with her 2nd album camomle blend, its simply a beautiful album. I've got this soft spot for norah jones-ish kinda songs. Nice man!

I guess my music taste will slowly evolve into such kinda songs too. Jazz, blues, easy listening. Powerful captivating vocals. ahhh.....

Every breathe you take .........

have you ever experienced a though that just cannot be shaken off from your head? Somewhat like some random tune that sticks in your head? Well ... its been what 2 days already and i cant seem to shake of someone's name from my head. Its funny really considering that she never really made much of an impact in my own life. But wow, it was qutie scary when i actually dreamnt about her too in one of my naps.

WEIRD.

Oh well, it has made me regret not trying to know her last time. I guess if fate allows, i'll be more proactive when i meet her again. Hmm.

weird indeed why i actually think like that. But somehow some people you meet in your life just can cast this kinda effect on you.

=)

yay, i am definitely not a bush fan, and even when i do lean towards being anti-bush .... i am really glad he is coming to Singapore! Why not? Haha ... his possible arrival at peyar lebar airbase simply means that everyone gets to get a half day off! Yesh, i am typing this at HOME. tsskkk. lalalalalala..... i guess they felt that he was a security hazard for us or something and it was safer to keep all of us away from him. hahaha.

oh well.

yay~ and also it seems that i'll be reporting to FTS tommorow! Well, i dont really know if it will be a good thing at all but yeah .... hope that things will turn out fine and stuff will get more interesting? Meanwhile there is like LITTLE progress in my bid to lose weight and keep fit,-er.

anyway.

i guess i'll be working on my website today, expanding it and perhaps reading my book and maybe go RUNNING in the evening. haha.

oh well. bright cheery morning for me. feels like the weekend already. =)

i am indeed a proud soul. I think in about perhaps 15 mins time my website should be solved off its glitches and deadlinks and ready to take on the world audience. Well, at least those with an internet condition. =D. I must say it was really tiring coming up with just one photogallery. GOSH. It took so long. Its ridiculous lah, well partially cos i dont know advanced techniques yet and so there was alot of "back to basics" kinda html rather than using automation found in the features of Dreamweaver MX. I mean, look at this blog! It uses DHTML does it? You input simple words in this box, click post and publish and VOILA! You blogger is updated all nice and taddy.

humph.

technology.

*sneeze*

the perpetual flu symptoms i get when i am home, in my room. Should i try out the plasterion thingie from sharp? Argh. Stupid sensitive nose.

anyway, it was another high expenditure day eating cook it urself tepanyaki buffet. didnt really enjoy the food, perhaps more of the company. Am i over zealous in such outings? I seem to be always there too. =D aiyah. bored what nothing to do at home. tsk. then again. Plenty isn't there?

Oh well.

i thought i had something more interesting to pen down tonight. apparently flushed down deep inside the abyss of my faint memory.

*sniff sniff*

damn nose.

a new day for discovery. well, somewhat. i revisited my old website as i wanted to back up the graphics i had created way back in 2000. Well, in preparation that i may re-use them in my should-be-in-the-works new website that is to emcompass most parts of my life, wiring myself permenantly into the worldwideweb. (that was a mouthful) anyway.

shocked. wow.
i did that when i was 15 years old?

the layout seemed something like i should be proud of actually. =), and it seems to be adding some pressure to make sure that the new website should be good. i doubt anyone would visit the website much, but well its personal i guess. somewhat like this blog which till today i have not opened it up to others. heh. not to even mention the plain fact that i havent got to know how to fully customise it like adding links and even adding a comments stuff for the voyeuristic creatures lurking around this web.

anyway, to grouse a little. it was a lousy day at work. but hey, i'm on a mission to p. tekong tommorow! wow. i mean. its nothing much really just brining some people there then to collect soem documents back to base. but.... p. tekong. the oh-so recently island of dispute, my little 'home' for 5 months?

it got me a little nervous, like some sort of little adventure. am i thinking too much? time shall tell.

oh not to forget. random thought of the day - i think my writing sucks big time. the language and everything. ZERO class, ZERO standard. PATHETIC. How to improve, leh?

ahhh..........

a satisfied soul indeed. Don't you love it when you wished to pick out something from the store and when you step into it, within 5 mins you're already have what you came for? Well. BLISS. Not to mention the excellent service provided by the staff of MPH (Marine Parade) - yay. i finally got to watch taxi 3. Hey, and since i was on a tour de france, why not throw in another luc besson film? So thats it, two french films and star wars in between to cushion the cultural buffet. Yummy. Taxi 3 wasn't too bad! Though i must say wasabi sucked big time. If it weren't for ryoko hirosue, it would surely have been graded neg3 by me. tsk.

oh my. a cute, sweet bubly japanese girl speaking french? Who cares if her dress sense was terribly warped in the show. gosh. I am blushing.

haha.

another soft spot? french + japanese girl? =D

Flash MX! Photoshop 7! MS Excel! Dreamweaver MX! all da computer programs i want to familarise myself with and integrate their capabilities to enhance my e-lifestyle! But alas, am i just too distracted or without a plan? I seem to be progressing almost little in all areas. Yeah i guess i learnt basic enough things in say MS excel while at work, but the power of the program! Same goes to photoshop i guess. I mean. Wow! Today is the first day i kind-of learnt how to use the actions, and most amazingly the power of the 'droplet'. Uh huh, then with some help from my dad my dreamweaver is finally connected to my ftp server and the prototype delaerrus.net is up!

(check it out at www.beh.org/maweiyi/home.htm )

Oh so? I still think my knowledge is like so shallow. Well as it is, perhaps there is a lack of creativity. I mean i dont really know what kind of webpage i want to have anyway. Personal? Wow. Start from scratch man. Gee..... slowly slowly lohr?

And if i want to learn more about scholarships, further studies, investments, photography, chat with friends online etc.

ARGH. !!! So many things to do! SO little time!
Time management? Should i adopt a more focused approach to my learning? Or adopt the current learn a little everyday strategy? Hmmm....

Oh bother.

Meanwhile, i cant imagine why i should mention food again but ..... bua kua. wow. I mean. Its oily, msg spilled, fatty, greasy, carcinogenic etc etc but ultimately.

i like. know i'll regret this when i'm having a heart attack some day from a burst artery.
bleah.

*munch*

munch munch.

how come indian-muslim food always looks so nice? Must be the silly spices they put inside. YUMMY. But i get this disgusting oily splat through my tummy everytime i eat their stuff. Not even Iced Green Tea could match its fiery (fine, oily) devilness.

oh well.

prawn cake. yummy. =D

anyway, been getting more irritated at my workplace. Uh huh, still cant even find a decent chair to sit down and rest my every growing arse. Hey. No space to sit? Boot me from you silly area lah. Somemore the task i've been assigned is really stupid. I bet its those thing you may spend time only to end up realising no one ever reads the stuff you type. I'm supposed to come up with a index of some manuals and directives etc. OKay, sounds logical right? But guess what man .... its available on the MINDEF intranet! Like not every single millions of computers all around SAF camps can access the stuff in the repositry right? Stupid. I mean you print out pages and pages and pages of the shit which gets updated every now and then. Not to mention filing circulars with all sorts of wasted printing like the usual formal b/s when it just wants to inform everyone that the telephone no. 1234567 has been changed to 7654321 on pg3 of the directive. So yeah. I can imagine the thousands of dollars (or even millions through these years) spent on wasted paper in the SAF. Its disgustingly rampant. I'm sure it exist in other wasteful government agencies. Is the private sector like that too? Such inefficeincy.

Oh well.

Oh yeah you know why they keep paper copies of the thousand of volumes of GOMs, directives etc in perhaps every single SAF camp? They are afraid of blackouts where they cant access the GOMs in such emergencies. Sounds logical? C'mon man. If there is a blackout in a SAF camp (worst an airbase) no one is gonna be interested in a GOM man. Its gonna be hell breaking loose. Network down? A serious disastor for the entire MINDEF intranet, terminal in our office down? Oh sheesh, cmom there is at least a thousand computers in the base. Base down? Uh hurh. Like there arent 100s of camps in singapore.

Am i too shallow to understand that all these is blatant waste of resources?

soundbites -

"so guys.....i bet you have heard alot of rumours about alpha wing before ...... well just to tell you ..... they're true."

erm. no. i can't imagine myself being part of the alpha family in december. N - No. 1 in 3 chance? I wouldnt count my odds too quickly. As guideng refrains : shit happens.

deep sh*t.