Its funny how when a close friend mentioned about the dangers of blogging, my fellow officer went on a blog surfing spree on the internet history of this inet comp in my branch. Well actually we were both happily reading some girls account on how she went clubbing for the first time and all her encounters with horny guys. It was like juicy and stuff till we linked ourselves to the -photos- page and when we saw her photo, well. It kinda ended there and we were like.

NEXT.
(okay lah not saying i damn shuai but we have the right to make my comments right?)

Anyway, then i realised i was blog surfing my friends and me included. Then my fellow netizen asked if i blogged. Somehow i didnt want to tell him what my addy was, cos my blogs of late rotated around sulking at work. Not too nice right? So then i dragged him away into a conversation and conveniently erased all evidence of sites i was surfing at.

Blogging is dangerou? Well, since i've decided to post this online there is seriously no harm right? Like stuff deemed too sensitive already taken out what? ie whether i am wearing underwear now or whatever.

Now then... you didnt have to know that did you.

So then, to my non-friends, voyuer class of netizens. EAT MY FIST.

muahaha.

p/s. did i mentioned i ran 5km today? Yay, achievment!

On leave, work and SOC

Think one year ago, at also around this time poor onion was fretting over his nemesis SOC. He passed it somehow on the 07/02. Miraculousy, he stumbled over sll sorta tough periods and eventually commissioned as an officer. He thought, he had last seen the horrible fact that he has to clear SOC and other physical challenges that well ... challenges this partially round blob of fat. Anyway, fate seems to have landed Onion back into a similar situation ... SOC.

this time, with a meaner course, no structured training nor fellow khakis to train with. He is alone, because somehow having an extra swipe of black over your shoulder says so - that you can do everything. SOC ah SOC. It has really become such a pain i cannot bear with man. =(

I can forsee it flooding my blog again. For it seems no one else but this faceless flickering screen and my own alterego can understand, to feel this PHOBIA of it. Of failing, failing, failing so many countless times. Perhaps it is so, that SOC is mental.

Work has also been stacking up above all this commitments and seriously i feel like a bottled repressed soul sometimes. With almost no one but myself to pull me along. And sometimes when i really cant take it, help is $0.15 away. Kind of. 15cents taught me something valuable today.

that u have done it before and it can be done again, you go C**!

it was the happiest, most encouraging word i got today. thank you!

Work just kinda ended, and my boss kinda hinted that i cant take any leave. I mean, oh man, i really feel damn tired of the whole SAF thingie, with seriously working and working. I really wished someone can understand this and grant me my much awaited for holiday, to take a break from all this hustle and bustle and perhaps focus onto my big guns (ATEC) next year. NSFs really so expendable meh? Not like i dont work hard with stuff what, i also want a break too. boo.

sigh.

With all this said and done. I guess its true that, if there is a will. There is a way. Everything is mental isn't it?

Tommorow shall be a better day.

So much for the 13 days good news. Even dad and mum were all excited for me. =| Heard some stuff from my CO side that we're unable to take any leave till after atec. Wah. 13 days eh dont play play. I think can clear 0.5 of this i also very happy liao u know? =( Boo ...

i want my holiday. i think i need some sorta break from army. I've never taken any leave to go overseas oh. Sigh. Hope they can be nicer to us lah. If really like that i NO morale one eh, ATEC also sian sian one.

Not to mention the damn ACCT instructors who think 2 lessons is not enough for me to take grading. Haha. Err... okay. So maybe?

Am i whining? Whine whine... hee

Oh well.

Somehow though with all that sulky feeling. I dont feel all that bad. In fact i seem pretty excited on the events coming up till i end my NS. Seems interesting and challenging enough.

A little leave wouldn't hurt too.

=D

Friendster is dangerous.

I was bored so i was web-page surfing till i went back onto friendster. I couldn't help it okay, i really didnt have control over the mouse, it started scrolling...scrolling until =D. Gosh, i can't stop grinning now, its so nice seeing your schooling day eye candies. SO CUuuuteeeee. hahaha. I'm going crazy crazy crazy. tsk tsk.....

I feel guilty for being so voyueristic (kind of right) wah lao, so long liao get over it can???

arhhh...... but so cuuuuteeee.....

Kaufee Cow

*taa daa* I proudly present Onion's special creation ... Kaufee Cow!

1 teaspoon Cofee Syrup
2 teaspoon Whitards of Chelsea Chocolate Milk Mix
3 teaspoon Amarita (Maple Syrupish Irish Cream)
w/ 1/2 Cup of Fresh Cold Milk

Onion's Kaufee Cow!

hahaha ... its nice its nice! A tad bit sweet but its my first step to more alcoholic drink creations! Taste it at a friendly home near you!

Was doing my usual 'clean-my-room and desk' routine that has this calming effect on myself. (you got your own silly self-help too! dont laugh k, idiot) ... anyway i managed to unearth some really retro stuff i'd made during my JC days. Exam timetables, notes, scribblings, holiday studying resolutions and love-notes, ahhhhh the good 'ol days of school. i think i prefer myself then, life was simpler, more linear and simpler to deal with. I miss school! is uni like this too? Or will i already have been moulded into such a different person that school will not be the same again. geee ....

begining to think that this design for this blog is drabby. i should change the layout pretty soon.

i should
i should
i should

but this onion is lazy ...

someone was somewhat unhappy with my lethargy today, so i shall be a guai little boy and point out a little list of activities for this week so that someone can stop worrying for me. =

MONDAY - CLEAN UP DESK

TUESDAY - CLEAN UP ROOM

WEDNESDAY - WRITE OUT LIST OF BOOKS TO READ/ LEARN

THURSDAY - READ LIST S/N 01 OF WEDNESDAY.

FRIDAY - EXERCISE IN NEIGHBOURHOOD, lose weight yay.

SATURDAY - OPEN HOUSE @ vjc

SUNDAY - MORNING EXERCISE, PREPARE TO GO BACK 1 SIR.

there how is that for a plan!

wee. goodnight everyone.

surreal day .... spent most of it in a deep sorta sleep, every shut-eye was accompanied by strange dreams of somewhat irrelevant events. no central theme, no recurring events and no familiar cast ... just a scrap-book of all sort of things fleeting itself across my memories.

somehow, it feels like a flashback of some sort, as i look forward to the days ahead. I concluded someway on my MRT trips home that i spent perhaps a minimum of 30seconds (steadily increasing per day) thinking of how my uni days would be like. Awaited breath of anticipation, still being spellbound by the fact that one day, i would be released from my green overalls, be reunited with my favourite pink*.

Quite excited with the proposition that i'd be civillan all too soon. With a whole litany of activities that i'd wanna carry out! Disappointingly, not everyone around me is affected by this enthusiasm somehow.... =( . My class is planning a trip to KL end this year, a time which i am still unsure if i am able to apply leave, or even feel secure leaving on the eve of ex Crescendo. Next is the fact that the council groupies dont seem all very excited about a nice long overseas trip (sth which i have been yearning! arghhh), i guess most of them are satisfied with a simple short trip on a cruise which cost less and stuff... sigh.

if all elese fails, i'm darn sure i'll just plan a solo sorta trip. haha. grrrr.

* NRIC, the plastic card that every NSF awaits their turn to be returned with.

Mrs Koh is pregnant! Goodness. She really is a civil servant through and through hurh. Just moments after we were talking about it with her and her lucky Mr. Koh at their place during national day.

She's been pretty excited by the whole thing and been sending all sorta emails regarding her 'pregnancy moments' so far, the joy kinda rubs off onto you somehow. Being the bio teacher that she is its been somewhat interesting reading her mailers. Makes quite a good laugh really ....

1. "now at last, whatever I know and taughtin theory comes into play....how the foetal develops,etc etc....It's reallyquite amazing as the pregnancy test are really sensitive....once implanted, hcGwill be produced and detected in the test....And the ultrascan, it's veryinteresting....I finally get to see the longitudinal and transverse sections of my uterus."

I mean ... #)(!*@#_#*_??????

2. "Now, the gestation sac is only 1cm in diameter and isjust a ball of cells, with a very thick chorionic sac. The amnionicsac has not taken over the role of the chorion yet...."

this sounds somewhat familiar to my growth option in my A levels... haha

Yes these are actual stuff written by her in our class yahoogroup mails. pretty kewl for a mum hurh?