Crisis after crisis. My luck really hasn't been too good as of late. But somehow i'm sadistic enough to be attracted to this sorta stuff. It always seems that only when i'm thrown off-guard to such deep sickening situations where i'd finally alerten my senses and realise my own imperfections.

Its nice to realise problems inherent in yourself early, while you're still somewhat protected. It might have been or might be ugly in days to come ...

but i'm glad it happened.

i'm a changed man.

it really has been quite a rollercoaster ride recently, after the short talk with our wing commander i've somehow been enlightened by my own shortcomings and actually realise what some of my simple actions actually might have an impact on a larger more serious scale. Perhaps it does sound farfetch ... but i do agree with one conclusion.

i think it is time

that i'd just shut up more. to listen instead of bitching and complaining (or even whinning) about whatever we're going through. I guess its been trying times and we're all emotionally disturbed by the recent spate of events. I guess its time to put an end to it.

it begins now.

wow.

people lose weight during war i guess ...

i'm 66kg.

damnit. i cant believe this....maybe its the water loss...

"The following story is entirely FICTIONOUS, any similarities to parties in real life is simply coincidental"

We are officially at war.
The instructors has declared war with the entire 92 of us pathetic souls.
Just yesterday afternoon, 7 guys were charged from my platoon.

For,

throwing away green pack combat rations into dustbin, throwing away a pack of horlicks that belonged with the rations, for bringing in 01 x Orange from the cookhouse and eating it in bunk, for throwing away 04 x SAF issued batteries, for having a messy room, for not throwing away the trash on time.

Just 4 hours ago, i was on my route march. Fine, fair enough .... ermm do people CLIMB Pengkan hill for routemarches? do people BASH through vegetation in FBO (coy estab weapons) in route marches?

tough training, fair enough.

Did i mention that cigrattes kept for safekeeping from the trainees were misappropriately taken out by the instructors to smoke, for free? Is this not abusing power and even stealing?

How does this compare to eating 01 x Orange which is "Property of the AF"?

How is falling in in 1min time, a timing simply ridiculous to meet in the day and subsequently doing pushups, alternate leg thrust and 20 degree leg raise (after ICCT breakfall revision) for 20 mins, just cos our dear instructor wanted to say "Good Morning to his platoon".

RIDICULOUS.

I think things are seriously getting nonsensical when we get whacked for all kinds of stupid reasons.
We're treated like dogs, no worst like dogs. Worms or even smaller life forms ....

to paraphrase.

"You bunch of arseholes are simply fucked up, you are the worst bunch of people i've seen in my life. You know what you all can do? All of you can simply FUCK SPIDER."

Uh hurh .... everything is our fault isnt it?


Is it?

Or do we all have a part to play.

Are we really that fucked up?

I really want to here the real Left hand columns of the people who waged war on us. Cos it seems like simply hell breaking loose.

oh, did i mention that i lost my handphone this week too?

sigh.