4 letter chinese word.

For this brief 20mins or so, I suddenly feel so young again, as if i was transported back 5 years ago when i was in metal buttons and tight dark blue pants. heh. I was trying to help my cousin with her chengyu homework and actually found joy flipping through a chinese dictionary (i think i have not touched it for 3 years?) and searching for chenyus (chinese idioms) to help.

I couldnt help but realise how i was amusing myself and also reminscing my days in sec school.

Which of course reminded me that it is not too long away to being a student once more. Gosh. I mean ... its been so long since i've been attending lectures and actually appreciating whats taught, doing tutorials, studying for tests and chasing skirts... definitely some form of fear somewhere ... i guess ... i really need to break out of whatever mould SAF has forced me into and be that lil' student that i am! Ahh....dont you feel so young again?

=D

2004 has gone and it seems that i'm trying very hard not to remember what 2004 meant to me. 2 letter could sum it all up. NS. Thats basically it. My 1 full year of officercadetishcrapturnofficerwhanot. I guess my cadetship was really sour. Alpha wing was not home, nor a place for much happy memories. I loved the challenges somehow but the whole system, administration and instructors and all? Nah. Something i'd rather forget. My short stint her at 1 SIR feels surreal too. I'm like this late addition into this family, arriving more because of necessity rather than anything else for one purpose called ATEC. Some fuzzy war i'm not really pysched into fighting. I feel tired and all and just want to well wait for what every nsf is waiting for. ORD.

I dunno where all the initial fire had died to, but my NS experience is just gonna end like that. A 3 month wait till the end of it all. 2 years and 2 months. And back to who i really should be.

It doesnt feel like a new year. 120,000 deaths (and rising) nearby doesnt make it any more party-ish either. 2004 was boring. Nothing special at all.

but i know 2005 should be different. Cos somehow, i think we will all be reborn again.

=)